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When I get upset, something inside of me shuts down. I feel like I should be crying or screaming or something but I don’t because I’m turned off. I go silent and don’t talk very much, just looking at people. Thinking so much that I could drive myself crazy. It’s the kind of upset that confuses me and makes me want to curl up and sleep it off. I stay fixed like this until the hurt runs away. Sometimes it feels like it’s never going to go.

Yea you know the situation got worse. Actually I feel so guilty when seeing dad and mom working so hard to earn money. I want to find a way to make things look better or to fall into right places but I've totally lost control of my life. I want to talk to my parents, to comfort them, but i couldn’t find any word to say so I decide to comfort them with my silence. It isn't anyone’s fault. Life’s like that and I choose to accept the way it is.

Now feeling a bit haunted...

The days when everything is just messed up, please end.

Smiling doesnt help!